New Year's Sunsets and Aspirations

It's late into the night on new year's day early morning Jan. 2 and I can't sleep. Who knows why, maybe it's that God and I needed to do some thinking or maybe all my laziness over my vacation is finally catching up to me and I can be lazy no more ( I don't really think that's possible). I hate New Years. Honestly, more than Valentines. For years now I have hated the hype and pressure to have a celebration on the 31st that was awesome enough to send the year out in "style." I also hate the contradiction that two married people can sit at home doing nothing on New Years Eve and no one thinks they are pitiful, sad and lonely. I'll step down from my soap box now.

So anyways, when Sullivan and I left on New Years Eve to head to Charleston I wasn't all that jazzed. It was cold and rainy outside, and remember my sentiments from above about the aforementioned holiday, how could you forget right? Well, the long and short of it is I have been praying about life a lot recently wondering what I'm doing here on this earth and if I am really serving God as much as possible and really living life to the full or am I just biding my time? Most of the drive to Charleston and today has continued in that thought pattern. Don't worry, I still don't have any answers or any new great passions that I think are leading me in a certain direction and I probably won't because here is what I think.

It was cold rainy and nasty on Thursday, and then all of a sudden it stopped. Literally, within half a mile the weather became drastically different. And then as I drove into Charleston I saw this.


and then it turned into this


My poor little camera phone doesn't do it justice, but isn't that just like God? Life is life and it is what God has called us to. Do I have all the answers? Nope. There are plenty of things I am still searching for and trying to figure out, I won't even go into it, but despite all of my uncertainties, doubts and insecurities, God is still going to bring the sun out after a nasty day of weather, and every day whether we can see it or not God is going to make the sun rise and set...and so are the day's of our lives, haha no, but really. I just loved it. I felt so at peace and comforted to know that Thursday. It doesn't matter that even though I would say 2009 was a pretty good year, one of my better ones I might even add, a year later or really 27 years later and I am still asking questions...some that I have been asking for a while and still battling some of the things that I probably will battle for a while, but despite all of this my God is a faithful God and that I know. I don't have any huge answers for my questions, but just like that beautiful sunset, sunset club worthy I might add, after a nasty day of weather the sun will set. Predictable, dependable, consistent, yet on Thursday surprisingly beautiful. I too must carry on with life in 2010 and admist daily albeit struggling faithfulness and doing "regular" life and work most likely struggling at that too, God will maybe make it into a surprisingly beautiful thing.

So with that sunset in mind here it is, my New Year's resolutions aspirations
1. To memorize scripture. Beth Moore started scripture memory on the 1st and 15th of every month. I would like to follow that schedule.
2. To spend more consistent time with god, specifically in intentionally devoted prayer time.
3. I want to be more intentional in life...how about that for a measurable goal haha.
4. I'm thinking I need to watch less tv. I contemplated being bold and going cold turkey. Then I decided I wasn't really feeling that calling, so perhaps just being more intentional about it...note aspiration #3 above.
5. Read more, ya know, like something other than blogs, maybe those things with pages and a cover. I think they are called books.
6. Exercise more. Well it has to be on here. I've really gotten into spin classes, but you wouldn't know it by looking at me other than this new protruding muscle on my shin...like that's really where I wanted an awesome new muscle.
7. Start some new things. Some people call them hobbies, I call it life. Regardless I need to get one.
8. Spend less and give more. I could churn off a list as long as this list-o-aspirations of things that I want to buy, just like that off the top of my head, but as much as the worldly part of me longs for those things, I don't want to live like that from never ending list of thing to thing. See #3
9. Coupons. Note #8
10. I want to be a meal planner, possible with the help of #8 and #9, and try new recipies. I always thought this was something I would start doing once I got married, but why wait! I need to be more #3 about my grocery shopping and this will help.
11. Get married engaged a boyfriend go on a date



Happy New Year's from In A Round Sort of Way and the Dingo!